Thursday, January 26, 2006
subsec day

wow! what a day for our subsec. by far, this is one of the hardest blow. imagine, a repeat cp integ. grabe! as if out other problems before are not enough. hehehe. but you know, this time, i don't think it's anybody's fault. we totally reviewed the slides the day before and i think this cp integ was better than last time. (because our last cp integ was disastrous. we were still making slides while the 1st group was presenting--that was so cramming to the highest level!). and i know that luis knows a lot about the topic. i guess, it was because we didn't have the time to sit down together and view them with the reporter. when i went to school this morning, i thought i was doing to have a heart attack. it was way past 7 am already and yet, none of the important reporters have shown up. (the one for pe and the one for pathophysio).and so...we were left again with the option of having again me, as one of the reporters! huh?! wow, de javu ba ito? no sarah, it's not. nangyayari lang talaga sa subsec nyo palagi. well, it's ok for me to report you know, my problem is that why is this always happening to us? why do we have to settle for something that's always last minute? cram all the time? i don't think we are irresponsible. i don't think we are less of a medical student that other people. but why does it always happen to us? hmmmm? my second heart attack was when i learned that our pathophysio reporter had just woken up when we called. and then arrived exactly when we were about to report...without having to see all the slides. hay....and then after that it was all a blur. the good thing about it is that i am able to laugh about it afterwards. as in. and still have a good mood to go about the whole day. hehehe. i guess, that is my optimism to the highest level, which i think, benefited me this day (i dunno for others---that's another discussion altogether). hay....sunny sarah. (yuck!). lesson learned, lesson learned. i hope we'd be able to do something about this.
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Detached

ever felt like you are somewhat detached to your body? like what we see in the movies so often...the scene when a person rushed to the hospital after a major accident, suddenly sees his own body below, with all the nurses and doctors scurrying around, his soul floating around, trying to comprehend what is really happening. i must say, that's what i've been feeling lately...i feel like i am watching myself going about the normal life of a medical student...rushing to study piles of lecture, meet deadlines, doing reports... trying to do this and that. i am normal, i am happy doing all these but i guess sometimes i am missing myself, i feel like i haven't done anything for my soul, for myself. i feel like something is missing...something is lacking. do i need a break? is that just it? maybe... i miss the feeling of feeling something??? weird no? miss the feeling of feeling something, haha. sometimes, its better to feel pain..at least you know that your heart is still functioning. i feel like i am floating...and at the same time, i am at this fast jeepney "patok" ride, taking me towards my journey through life. is it just medstudent syndrome? i wasn't like this before. or maybe i just realized it just now? i don't know the answer to my question. when will i know the answer? better yet, when will i stop asking these questions?
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