Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Detached

ever felt like you are somewhat detached to your body? like what we see in the movies so often...the scene when a person rushed to the hospital after a major accident, suddenly sees his own body below, with all the nurses and doctors scurrying around, his soul floating around, trying to comprehend what is really happening. i must say, that's what i've been feeling lately...i feel like i am watching myself going about the normal life of a medical student...rushing to study piles of lecture, meet deadlines, doing reports... trying to do this and that. i am normal, i am happy doing all these but i guess sometimes i am missing myself, i feel like i haven't done anything for my soul, for myself. i feel like something is missing...something is lacking. do i need a break? is that just it? maybe... i miss the feeling of feeling something??? weird no? miss the feeling of feeling something, haha. sometimes, its better to feel pain..at least you know that your heart is still functioning. i feel like i am floating...and at the same time, i am at this fast jeepney "patok" ride, taking me towards my journey through life. is it just medstudent syndrome? i wasn't like this before. or maybe i just realized it just now? i don't know the answer to my question. when will i know the answer? better yet, when will i stop asking these questions?
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