Monday, November 27, 2006
On Waiting...

As I was browsing through blogs, this one caught my eye. This is posted at Be Still blog entitled "The Waiting Game"...these are quotes from the book Red Moon Rising by Pete Grieg and Dave Roberts:.

unanwered prayers?

“I feel like God is waiting to see if I am waiting. If he just flooded in with answers and guidance right now, I would not have changed, I would not have learned to wait and trust without the answers and without a roadmap for the future. So I’m glad that God was silent, because I actually want to wait…
I don’t necessarily want ease and instant anything any more. I want to be different before I do anything different. So I’m waiting for God, and God is waiting for me to see if I am really waiting for him, and not just wanting things from him.”
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Friday, November 24, 2006
better late than never


Since my pre-med days, I have built my reputation as a late comer in class. I know that it is not an excuse that I commute everyday from Rizal to Manila because it was my choice to endure pain, traffic and pollution (haha- masochism?)so I must suffer the consequences but let me remind you, those were pre-LRT2 days and it took 3 hours for me to get to school and 3-5 hours to go back home (and ofcourse, I still had to wash the dishes and feed the dogs when i get home). No wonder during those times I looked harassed everyday and there was always some form of stain or dirt on my white uniform (that you could probably trace to the stuff along my journey, haha). I remember taking exams with other sections whenever I missed my 7am exams (thank God for understanding professors! try that in medicine, gud luck na lang). It's good that medicine has forced me to somewhat change it...and when I come to think of it, much of my growth as a bible believing Christian also took place just recently...right in the middle of this toxic, rigid and totally demanding medicine life.

Since I was a kid, my father have always encouraged us, and forced us to attend sunday service. The confused and rebel person that I was before, I tried to oppose him. I was still unsure about my beliefs and faith back then and the only thing that made me come to sunday service was my fear and respect for my father who only comes home for vacation twice a year (bec. of his work). And i thought, "well, I just have to attend this thing while he's here". simple. no arguments. but I did try perform my delaying tactics --which always resulted in us arriving late. (waking up late and taking my time sa shower, haha..)

I have to thank my father for not giving up on me in that aspect. It was a painstakingly long process. I was already in college when I started attenging sunday service voluntarily--even when my father's not here to check my attendance. And yet, I continued to be like what dra macaranas lectured about those cooking oil stored in tin cans... you won't see it but when you look inside you'll notice it's solid at room temperature (meaning it's not like the your olive oil which is healthier, made up of polyunsaturated fat and liquid at room temperature). translation: natutulog na mantika=tsk, tsk,not good. yes, i accepted Jesus Christ in my life but I continued to be like my old self..like stagnant water breeding mosquito eggs.

But the Lord really works in mysterious ways. He never gives up on us, and he doesn't turn his back when His children is ready to come to Him even after being neglected and rejected many times. He welcomed me with open arms and a warm accepting embrace. Whenever they ask me when did I start to becoming a Christian, I would say I have been attending church for years but really, as much as I would hate to admit it, my true spiritual birth just came this year. And really, knowing Him has been one of the most wonderful experiences in my life. I have realized so many things (which deserves lots of future posts!) about myself and how I should live my life...my purpose...and my relationships especially with Him. But one important realization was that, what have I been doing all these time? I have wasted so many years when I could have been having a hot and boiling relationship with the Him, not hiding inside my tin can, sleeping stupidly while struggling hard to find the answers, when
all along, He was just around, waiting for me.

This is one time I regret being late... because i have missed out on so much during those years.
*Sigh* Grabe, truly living up to my "late comer" reputation before... =(
on a lighter note, as they always do say, better late than never!=) Seriously, it is true...because with Jesus Christ, IT IS NEVER TOO LATE. He is open and loves us all...early birds and late comers alike! (Aba, may mas understanding at mabait pa pala kaysa sa mga professors ko before)

Remember what he said " I will never leave you nor forsake you" Deut 31:8; Psalm 37:28

I am thankful that at this point in my life I came here...tired...late....but nevertheless...at home.

"Everything on earth has its own time and its season"
Ecclesistes 3:1 CEV


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HEART OF WORSHIP

beautiful song by Matt Redman

when the music fades,
and all is stripped away...
and I simply come...
longing just to bring something that's of worth
that will bless your heart...

i'll bring you more than a song,
for a song in itself, is not what you
have required,
you search much deeper within..
and though the way things appear,
you're looking into my heart...

*i'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you, all about you Jesus.
I'm sorry Lord for the thing,
I've made...
and it's all about you...
it's all about you Jesus...

King of endless worth,
no one could express
how much you deserve..
though i'm weak and poor,
all I have is yours
every single breath...

*repeat
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